Confession #5

It's not hard to seek validation from men, when you go day-by-day and never get any. I'm sure if I got some attention here and there, some determined suitors, I wouldn't feel so desperate to find a man that can find himself in me. Instead I seek to find myself with anyone that would even share the same air as me. I grow attached and a grow a little crush with almost every boy I talk to. I picture the perfect boyfriend in all of them just because I've never had one. I'm sure after a day I would be beyond disappointed to be with them. And when I make this realization I retract any feelings and direct them to the next guy.